Run to the City Lights

I know its a bit cliche but like most of the artists out there, I draw based on how I feel, and this piece of drawing shows exactly how I feel.

I was just browsing through TV channels one day and suddenly Greyson Chance appeared on the TV as he appeared on a charity program about helping the less-abled children to have more confident in themselves. And in the background there was this music that caught my ear and I found out that it was titled "Sunshine and City Lights".

It has this very straightforward, cheesy lyrics which might be a little bit too... mature for a young guy like Greyson to sing, but I find it really beautiful. While repeating the music, an image of a girl running towards the city lights as they guide her back home from all the pains she has endured flashed into my mind.

I wanted to capture that very image immediately, because I really feel that way. For the past few months being terribly down, mind drowned in negative, hopeless thoughts I nearly thought I couldn't make it through.

But... after 3 months of drowning myself with the thoughts of wanting to hurt the people that I care about just so I could feel like I win... was just a mere petty, selfish and evil thought that would only bring me nothing but more anger, I finally realised that... all these thoughts are not going to bring me anywhere. It just shows how very immature I was, and how hard I tried to deny the fact that I chose to not trust him instead of trusting him because I know you so well.

Drawing my feelings out and letting him know how I felt and how I thought, truthfully released me from the grief and guilt I had been harboring for the past few months. Now I know, I just need to learn to forgive you, and to forgive myself for forcing my selfish thoughts on you.

If you are reading this - Thank you for everything, my best friend. I will always wish for your happiness

"What you need,
to know, is to try,
to let it go, let it go.

What you need,
to find, is someone,
who never will let you go.

And ohhh, sunshine and city lights, will guide you home"



City lights inspired from here and pose for the lady here.